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11:02 PM permalink

Sonya's wants.


5'4".
125 lbs.
Dark sienna, but not black
raven
hair, wavy and messy-like

Imagining
rolled out her ivory sheets,
and throw a men's waist-shirt
some of ebony jeans
loafers, and
a scarf
carmine, flaring as she quickly jolts

Down La Rue St. Honore
with the coffe in one hand
as she races up the Metro steps
her 23 in another,
but it isn't her
nor the scum girl Sonya
a torrent trampoline
on wireless ether engines
cyber silver surfin
zone on / in   .nets &  .coms

Searching fiber-optics for sight
browsing rooms of M4M / in-fantasized delights

An itch to fix
to sit transfixed
as if
subliminally attached
umbilically
digitally digitized digi-man
to a electronic felatio soundtrack

While detached
lurking duplicitly   
reading pretend profiles explicitly
for kisses
dreaming up new fetishes
with misspelled texts
tandem testimonials as if written
by a Compaq-machine-head
Microsoftened lust

Currents electric now as she turn into dust
with iBooks & faraway Dells on the laps
scrolling list for Adams
status' with
anything goes
remonstrating our vicious cycle
alive & blank with un
/ trust
gone viral

This isn't her
where are you, Sonya
mother said
her pentium processor has broadbanded
into the wondrous realm
a pixel powered virtual landscape
peopled by avatars
speaking internet slang
FFS, WTF are you talking about?
she asks
in so many words

Thinking
about 
polluting her body
and hating her mother
having an addiction to those
toxic remedies
like hair dye
nutmeg
and bleach
taking calcium supplements
for dwindling marow 
and for once don't care about politics

But
this isn't her
nor the Taman Shud code,
you could easily break

I am not as talented
she said, 
as her
to be in two places at once,
but she
has 221 faces
and genius of multiple personalities
cybil
facets
of sabotage with Mommy Dearest grace
beautiful strangers his acquired
taste



11 at the night
no more time
for tech weenie kids
& any other org's
nor for Agnolo Bronzino's drawing
instead
she went to Marquee
and start yelling



                                                  Bad girl,
              bad girl
I want to be a bad girl.
            turn out to be a bitch on the low
                                        who'll knows?




(rinzsu)

Thursday, March 10, 2016

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